Friday, January 18, 2008

A place of my own

I have a chance to get a place of my own here so if it goes through, I'll hang in there for a while.
the urge to just get in my car and drive is almost overwhelming though. I remember how it felt coming here, the sense of freedom I had starting a new life. I'd like to have that back again.

I'm hoping getting a place of my own will do the same thing. I seem to have sunk into a depression I'm not dealing with very well. I have got to snap out of it, I'm trying I really am. I just don't seem to be getting anywhere

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I'm thinking of moving again.

New Orleans this time. I just don't seem to be able to catch a break here so I think it's time to move on. I should have known I wasn't strong enough to make a difference here.

I don't have much left but, I'm selling everything I do have and getting the hell out ASAP. I'm thinking four weeks at the most. I don'thave much left to say excep I'll be seling art supplies and brushes on my starving artist account as soon as I can get them listed.

I just checked the map on yahoo and it's 902 miles from here to New Orleans I'm gonna go slow and stay in motels on the way so I will take three days to make it down there. I'm gonna sell my computer and camera and printer so I won't be listing any more once leave here. I'll post some pictures in a few days.

Monday, January 14, 2008

I'm finally recovering from the phneumonia

It took longer than it should have but I'm finally feeling better. I've been listing some paintings on ebay and they are selling OK. Here is one of the latest one.
Mag painting

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Now I lay me down to sleep part 2

Well that didn't last long. At one AM this morning my son got me up out of my sick bed to take him and his wife out to the ER for thier pain shots. This is a pretty regular event for them but usually it's just one of them not both, but tonight since I'm sick and all I guess they thought it would do me good to get out in the frigid air and wait in a hospital for a couple of hours before going back out into the fridgid air to drive them home since neither one of them was in any shape too drive. At least I know what to pray for now.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

I've taken a turn for the worse tonight. I can feel the fever back as bad as ever. I've taken some Tylenol and am drinking lots of water but it is getting hard to breath.

The pain seems to be going lower in my chest now. I think the phnemonia is sinking farther into my lungs. My chest hurts worse than it did the other night when I was in the ER.

I'm going to take a couple of shots from my nebulizer and prop myslef up with some pillows to make it easier to breath. I'll say my prayers tonight, I'm just not sure what I'm going to pray for.


It seems like I'm in a neverending nightmare. Two nights ago I got very sick and wound up in the emergency room with Phneumonia. I feel a lot better now but I'm still not very well.
Sometimes I just feel as if I'm living in hell with no way out. Every time I start to see my way out something else happens to set me back again. My prescriptions cost more than I had to pay for them so I had to pick what Meds were the most improtant. I took the Antibiotics and left the breathing treatments there. I have an inhaler that will hopefully make up for the lack of breathing treatments. It's the same medicine. Oh well. I am getting better. but I'm broke again and don't know where the gas money is coming from so I can go to work tomorrow if I feel well enough to go. Chances are I'll still be too sick to work. but that will mean less money. I just don't know what to do. I've got some jewelry to pawn or sell. I guess a trip to the pawn shop is in order. I can't eat the jewelry or run my car with it. It doesn't seem so special to me now.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Another New painting

I listed the painting below last night after I got home from work. I'm really trying to build up my sales again. I need money in the worst way. I'm going to have to choose between paying my internet connection or my cell phone bill. I really need the internet to make some money but I got the cell phone so I could keep in touch with my kids since I am not at home any more. I felt it was really important to have a number that I can be reached at no matter what, but they don't call much anyway, so I don't think it will be any great loss. I've got more painting to list so maybe I won't have to choose. shrug

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